The Introvert

He practised talking with her in mirror,

craziest of things to himself he told.

He thought to express his love,

since being an eight year old.

She could never know his name,

but recognized his face.

The boy in his fancies however

would kiss, hug and embrace.

In the years that passed by,

her charm and beauty both grew.

The boy too perfected his art,

from the portraits he drew.

She wondered sometimes about the guy,

from the neighborhood, silent and shy.

No one else could even notice this,

playing pranks on him a few would miss.

One fine day he had tried to talk,

wearing a smile to her he walked.

He turned all of a sudden, walking away,

while she stood puzzled and shocked.

He was surprised with himself,

the hesitation had no cure.

If there would be a second chance,

of this he wasn't very sure.

And finally he saw the love of her life,

the fortunate man she had loved.

Tears of disappointment were in his eyes,

thinking of a love he never deserved.

Unloved, unwelcome, unwanted,

slowly silently he cried.

The dreamt castle turned to ruins,

his wish had finally died.

- Rishabh Bidya

Java

I've studied many languages before,

but java was a real pain.

I didn't knew what to write

in public static void main().

Observe the syntax, begin to code,

Java says - "You're a liar".

There's depth in those concepts,

use appropriate access specifier.

I get very troubled,

in using 'super' or 'this'.

I feel falling in the clutches,

of the dark and deep abyss.

Logic never changes in any language,

but terms of java have hit my pride.

Before you write your methods,

learn to overload and override.

ArrayList, TreeSet and HashMap

are child classes of 'Collection',

but this is a different context,

there's also garbage collection.

Using 'Eclipse' didn't help

at my path to redemption.

I spent many a night,

resolving null pointer exception.

Debugging is such a worry

where errors don't leave a trace.

Should I 'extend' or 'implement',

in using a method of an interface?

Clearing the memory once allotted,

is a thought very wise.

In order to do it,

You must use - finalize().

Programs may run, they may not,

my friend, have no misconceptions.

They will run perfectly only when,

you've handled all exceptions.

And this was just the beginning,

there's JDBC, swings and thread.

And days of practice to be spent,

for the terms mentioned and unsaid.

© Rishabh Bidya

Meet me once

For years I haven't had a sight,
for years nothing's been right.
To hide my feelings I've tried,
to friends and relatives I've lied.

Days vanished and years passed,
it has been so long.
To you in my heart,
a place will always belong.

You didn't worry and I didn't care,
but of the pain we were always aware.
It has hurt us since you were gone,
I accept it and you've known.

I've achieved laurels and won acclaim,
but always felt truly lost,
for your love has no price
and my heart has no cost.

If you came back for a while,
if again I could make you smile,
If loneliness leaves you,
there'll be nothing that grieves you.

Why the anguish and the anxiety?
Why the struggle and strangle within?
Spend a day with me soon
like the days together we'd seen.

Meet me once, I'll explain,
of our way to fight the pain.
The pain that made you drop tears,
the pain that has hid since years.

I've never known anything sweeter,
than the words that you say.
I want to relive the happier times,
even if it happens for a day.

© Rishabh Bidya